This piece represents a ruined, unsatisfying, lifeless orgasm. The peak of pleasure is spoiled by a horrible memory.
 
This piece explores the rupture of pleasure by intrusive memory-how trauma can invade the most intimate moments, interrupting the body's natural response. It reflects an experience many women have but rarely articulate: the inability to fully surrender to pleasure when the mind is still occupied by past harm.
 
The painting uses violent interruption as a metaphor: the woman's face suggests pleasure or release, but it's literally being "pierced" and disrupted by the "bullet" or the horrible flashback. 
 
Core topics of this piece are:  
 
The body moving toward pleasure while the mind resists or intrudes.
A feeling of loss of control over one's own pleasure.
The collision between desire and fear/shame/memory.
 
 
Acrylics on Canvas, 2026.
8" x 10"; 20,32 x 25,4 cm
Frame in the picture included. (Painting shipped already framed.)
Covered in gloss protective varnish.